The Tough Romantic Questions Part 6

1. Would you leave Morgan for a celebrity that really really liked you?
Morgan doesn't need to worry about that. Leonardo DiCaprio is sadly too old for me!

2. Are you a virgin?
Yes, and I'm proud of it.

3. How would you react if Morgan started dating another girl?
If he was doing it while we were still together, there's a very good possibly I'd be in jail currently. Beware, sir! 
If he dated someone else afterward, I guess it would depend on how long after. Still, when I think about Morgan with someone else, going to movies and little dinners together, taking her to the shooting range and coming up behind her to teach her how to steady the gun in her hands, it makes me physically ill. In my opinion, my figurative flag has been planted. Other women, back off!

4. At what age do you planned to get married?
When it comes to marriage, I've kind of stopped making plans of with whom and when. Actually, I'm making plans of what flowers and which dress.

5. What would be your best reason to break up with Morgan?
He forced me to eat asparagus!

6. If Morgan had to move far away for many years, would you wait for him?
I am waiting right now. Thankfully, we're not too far away from each other that it isn't possible to see each other. While we are apart, we got seriously lucky. I was telling one of my Acting I classmates about my long distance relationship, and then she filled me in on hers. She is an adult student and told me that earlier in her marriage with her husband, he was in North Carolina and she was in Chicago, I think. They lived apart as a married couple for over a year. And, they are still together today reunited in the mountains of North Carolina.

7. Do you believe in God? Why?
Yes, I do. It's what I've believed since I had the mental capacity to formulate thought on something as big and powerful as God. It's what I grew up with, but that's not the reason why I still believe today. There were moments I've doubted, thought and questioned. I think every Christian goes through that. And I honestly can't tell you why I believe. Morgan has asked me that time and time again, but I can never answer him. It's just what I believe, and I hold on to that tightly. We have to have faith in something. I have and have always had faith in this one God in Heaven. If it turns out I was completely wrong at the end of my life, at least I had the hope that what I believed in was true and got face another day with an all-powerful God and a pack of angels at my back.

8. Do you have any enemies? Why?
Yes. I made mistakes. So did they.

The Tough Romantic Questions Part 2

And here goes round 2...

1. If you had never met Morgan, who would be your boyfriend right now?
Um, there weren't many suitors lined up at the door. It was Morgan or no one really. And I wasn't even looking at him as if he were a candidate. It just sort of happened.

2. What was your first impression of Morgan?

The first time I met Morgan he was invited over to the apartment by CC, my roommate. He burst into the apartment and wandered into the kitchen with a huge bag of cooking utensils and a blue and white cooler filled with frozen shrimp. Immediately, he began to cook and bang around pots and make things sizzle on the stove. I found him to be very sarcastic and had a strong personality as he completely ignored me sitting at the dining room table reading and yelled at CC over the sounds of cooking. He never said a word to me or glanced my way until he turned around and said, "Do you want some of this?" Thus began our relationship of him wanting me to try new things and me stubbornly refusing yet admiring him for trying.

3. What do you consider the most important values in a man?
Honesty
Tenderness towards both animals and people
Strong faith
Passion in more than one thing or activity
Family

4. What is one characteristic that you find in a guy that makes them most attractive?
Knowing when it's ok to be silly and when it's good to be serious

5. Besides family members and Morgan, who is your closest male friend?
That would be MK and Chris. Chris and I tell each other everything. He's my rock. I want his opinion before I do something. I want his opinion on other people. The way he refuses to conform to someone else's standards is admirable to me. He is who I look up to.
MK and I are inseparable souls. When we're together, we have each other and that's all that matters. I don't want a life without MK. I tried once and failed. Now that we're back together, I'm not going to make that mistake again.
Both of these boys I couldn't love without. They're like my human teddy bears. I need them to hold and squish and to hug me back.

6. What are the things you admire most about Morgan?
I love that Morgan keeps himself in shape and healthy. He puts a lot of thought in what goes into his body and how that affects him. Exercising, running, and weight training are all very important to him and it's a breath of fresh air to see that in today's McDonald-loving age.

I love (and some times hate) his refusal to go along with something, how he never gives in or conforms to what someone else believes, feels, or says. He never takes anything for face value. He won't BS you so don't BS him!

7. When it comes to life in general, what do you feel is the most important thing of all?
Time. Use every minute every day every week every month of every year. Don't waste of second!!! We aren't promised tomorrow so don't put off what you could do today. Tell everyone you love them. Hug and kiss! Don't ever give up hope and don't stop loving someone just because they made you upset for a minute or two. You never know when you could lose them.

8. How would you describe "happiness?"
As in what that means to me? Happiness... "is a warm gun." Sorry, I had a Beatles moment. And I don't even like the Beatles. Happiness is not the Beatles. Honestly, I don't know how to answer this question. I've never thought of anything like that before, what a word means to me. I know happiness when I feel it. I can't really describe that. Christmas... those are usually my happiest days.

9. In reviewing your life, what would you say your biggest mistake was?
No comment.

10. What do you do now in order to ensure that you never make that mistake again?
Know what the limits are.

11. What do you consider to be your three major strengths?
My imagination and creativity
My passion for things/hobbies/activities that I love
My hope and faith

12. What do you consider to be your three major weaknesses?
My lacking self confidence
My spiteful tongue

My inability to forgive and forget

The Tough Romantic Questions Part 1

These come from the "100 Questions to Ask before Marriage" blog. I was surfing through the Internet and thought they'd be interesting to answer since I've finally got some time of my hands and really wanted to post something! That could be a dangerous combination!!

Starting with the 'Do You?' Section, I would like to add a side note that Morgan doesn't know the answers to some of these questions. ...Huh.

1. Do you consider yourself to be an honest person?
I do indeed!! One of my strong beliefs in life is to never, ever lie! I can recall only three times I ever told a straight-faced lie, and one was to get out of gym class in 2nd grade. I wasn't so much lying that I was injured but I lied and said my dad wrote the letter when I had written it in class because he didn't have time that morning to write one. Though I was a kid, I still regret telling that lie. The others.... I try not to think about them. Then, my belief crumbled under pressure. It won't happen again.

2. Do you believe that love involves following your heart or your head?
From my personal experiences and what I've seen, you follow your heart when you love someone. I've done many stupid, stupid, retarded, lame, dumb mistakes out of "love" and gotten burned. I've seen my own family members and many friends do the same thing. So, I believe that you follow your heart for love but that I also believe you won't have a well-rounded, fulfilling relationship unless you also follow your head!

3. Do you still have feelings for someone what you once shared a relationship with?
I do. And I don't think Morgan will be surprised to hear that. For one person, I still have feelings of respect and a family-type of love. He knows who he is. The other... well, I can't really say what kind of feelings I still have for him. They're just as confusing and hurtful as our relationship was. I hope those feelings disappear.

4. Do you have an specific plans for the future when it comes to your permanent relationship?
As in this relationship? We plan to get a hamster over the summer. :) Due to our circumstances, that is as far as we're allowed to specifically plan right now!

5. Do you believe in living with someone before you married to them?
No, but I'm not exactly being the best model of that right now. I believe that if Morgan and I lived in the same town or had a place to stay that wasn't each other's apartment, we would not be living together.

6. Do you feel that a high value should be placed on money or relationships?
Relationships, yes. Money, no. And Morgan and I often have disagreements about this because he's very practical like my father. I think Father would enjoy that fact in Morgan as he saves and budgets in a very similar way that I watched my Father doing as I grew up. Maybe this is because I'm enthralled with the Moulin Rouge-themed idea that truth, beauty, freedom, and love are to be placed above all else (except for faith of course) and that I don't care about the money. It's great to have but an overflow is not necessary for my happiness.

7. Do you feel as if you are a trusting person? If not, what makes it difficult for you to trust others?
I'm not a trusting person. Ask the guy who screwed me over why.

8. Do you believe when people are just dating that it is ok for them to date more than one individual at a time?
As long as they up front and honest about it, why not? It's up to the other person whether it's ok or not for themselves.

9. Do you feel as if you are able to get along with others well, or do you feel as if most people do not understand you well?

Ah, a question after my own heart. No, I don't feel that most people understand me. You can ask my friends and they'll tell you that I'm one person at one minute and turn into someone else the next. I'm happy; I'm sad. I'm creative; I'm on a different planet. No one, including myself, knows what is going on inside my head. And, I kind of like it that way. I'm so used to no one gaining VIP passes into who I am that I stopped handing them out.

10. Do you currently have any type of financial goals for your future?
Uhhh.... ha! Not really. That probably scares Morgan.

11. Do you have a book that you consider your favorite of all time?
Wuthering Heights
Vulpes the Red Fox, this is the only book that I've read more than 3 times. This book with its description and characters, even with the crappy ending, I can never turn away from!
The first four pages of The Hobbit. They make me happy!

12. Do you view someone that you know or know of as a "hero"?
William Wilberforce. He fronted the movement to abolish slavery in England and its colonies. His life story depicted in the film Amazing Grace makes me cry every time!! That man... I want his passion about everything in life! I would love to have the type of marriage he had with his wife. I would love to make that kind of difference in at least one country. I would love to have that kind of determination and belief in something and fortitude.
"NO MATTER HOW LOUD YOU SHOUT YOU CANNOT DROWN OUT THE VOICE OF THE PEOPLE!"

13. Do you often feel as if you are a victim of circumstance?
I am ashamed to say yes.

14. Do you suffer from a habit that you consider to be bad?
I bite my lower lip until it's all chapped and dry.
I grind my teeth, which drives Ma and Morgan up the wall!
I adapt my personality depending on who I'm hanging out with....

15. Do you feel as if you are a positive or negative person?
Depends on what question you're asking me on what day. This morning, that was a negative morning!